Lift her up, please

Hi guys. Thank you so much for praying us through all this. This past 24 hours has been rough for me. I go from this wonderful peace, knowing that God worked a miracle and brought our daughter back from death to just being so terrified that I can't stop shaking. Giving our little girl up to God was not a one time thing, it's a minute by minute all day long thing. I'm tired. I can't think straight. Thank you, Lord that "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." (Romans 8:26) I also need you guys to come along side me and hold me up in prayer. Last night I told the Lord, "Jesus, my hands aren't big enough and I'm not strong enough to hold this all up. You have to do it." Please, please don't stop praying.

I'm afraid to put specific requests in here, because God is forever coming at problems from a completely different perspective. But we've been informed that Hope has some gas in her tummy that is becoming an issue. It could mean there is a blockage. She also has this hole (don't ask me the name of it but all babies in utero have it) that allows the blood to bypass the lungs. Now that she is born that needs to close up. They usually give the babies ibuprofen for it, but Hope's kidneys aren't doing well enough at the moment to handle the ibuprofen. I don't know if we should be asking for healing for these specific things or not, so I'm going to leave it up to you guys to pray how you think best. But at least talk to God about these concerns.

I'm sorry if I haven't been very good about getting back to people today. I haven't been able to talk much without sobbing. Don't stop calling or emailing. It just may take me a little bit to get back to you. But it does still make me feel loved.

Amy