Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Mike already updated on Hope, so I won't spend much time on that. Let me just say, though, never have I been so excited by one of my children's bowel movements. :) She also is sitting at 1 lb. 12 oz. right now. That is just fluid, but it is still exciting to me that she is almost 2 lbs. Other than that, she is stable and not many other changes. But we are thankful for all God is doing with her.
Hey just wanted to say a quick thank you to Matt B for your words of encouragement , and thanks to the Nelsons for the gifts they were great. Here is Andy with his new toy.Also Hope seems to have an uneventful night, but I almost forgot she had a big poop which might be a good sign which is great. Thank you all for your prayer's GOD is good...Love Mike
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Mike has been feeling better and has started visiting Hope again. He took this video of her last night and it made me so happy to see her again. Isn’t she just the prettiest little thing? I can’t wait to get in to see her again.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
As for how the rest of the family is doing….. The kids are really happy to be up here with us. Mike, however, is having a hard time caring for Andy in particular, and I can’t help much because I can’t lift him. For instance, yesterday morning Andy had completely soaked all his bedding and playpen with pee. When Mike took off his outfit, we realized that Andy had pulled his penis out the side of his diaper. So his diaper was completely dry. Good job, Andy. Neat trick. So after Mike scrubbed down the playpen and washed all the bedding, he took the 3 boys out to Fred Meyer to go shopping. He was standing in line to check out when he realized that Andy had pulled the same trick and peed all over the shopping cart. Let’s just say, Dad was not feeling warm, cuddly feelings toward our youngest. We could really do with a couple of days where we don’t have any incidents. (By the way, Andy is now only allowed to wear onesies with pants regardless of how hot it gets.) I asked the oldest kids if it would be okay to go home for a little while and give Dad a break, but the answer to that was a pretty definite “No!” They really want to be with us right now. Mary sobs at the idea of leaving us or her baby sister. The boys were pretty upset at the prospect too. So they came up with all kinds of ideas to help Dad out instead. They are going to try not to fight (good luck with that one) and try to play with Andy more. They also want to go out and buy Mike a bunch of presents. While we’re shopping, they want him to go out to Starbucks by himself for a treat. They want to spend their own money on him and help out with all our bills. I explained that we are actually doing fine and have an emergency fund set up for just this reason, but they still want to help. I have good kids. I don’t deserve them.
As for me, I think I’m getting better. I don’t panic everytime the phone rings now. As I said, I’m really looking forward to being with Hope now. My body is recovering well, though I think I’m still inclined to push it a little. It just feels so good to be up and about after being stuck in my house and on bed rest for so long. My brain may not be firing on all cylinders yet , as evidenced by an innocent question by my 6 year old. “Mommy, are you still on medicines that make your brain not work right?” But overall, things are looking up today.
Thanks again for all your prayers on behalf of our little Hopester. We really look forward to the day when everyone gets to meet her and love on her in person. We are so blessed by all of you.
Friday, July 23, 2010
After leaving Hope, we went looking for a place to stay. My Aunt Shirley and Uncle Don had very graciously volunteered their motor home, if we could find a place to put it. We went and checked out some RV parks and were not finding anything that would work for us. So we went to check out an apartment that we heard about (thank you Eva) and it wound up being really wonderful. It is a little ways from the hospital (20-25 min), but it is in a wonderful neighborhood and is owned by a lovely Christian couple. It is plenty big for our need and has a big yard for the kids to play in. We feel like it is such an answer to prayer and Mike does not feel at all worried if I wind up staying there by myself. Thank you, Lord!
Other praises - I am healing very quickly. I went all day without taking so much as a Tylenol. I even still had ankles by the end of the day. I'm having to do a lot of pumping since Hope isn't ready for my milk yet, but it is going much more smoothly than I would have expected. Again we thank the Lord.
But we still have some concerns we'd like you to pray about. First off, Nate is sick with a cold and I think it's starting to spread to the rest of us. Mike has skipped visiting for the last 2 days and I didn't go this afternoon. It kills me to not go see her. I had the nurse take a video of her on my camera. Then I broke down crying to her about feeling awful that I couldn't come talk to my girl. She assured me that she would talk to her lots to make up for it. Please pray this is short lived and we can get back in to see her. I'm really second-guessing everything I do nowadays. I wanted so badly to have my kids with me and be a family again. Now I wonder if I wasn't just being foolish. I can't trust myself to think clearly right now. Pray God will lead us in all our decisions. And of course, pray for Hope. When we pray as a family, Mike and I go through and list off all her body parts that need help. The kids have given up and just pray for "all her body parts". That works too.
Before I sign off, I just wanted to take a minute to thank some people specifically. Carla, thanks for coming up so I didn't have to be by myself when Mike went to get the kids. Jessica, thank you for all the meals. Lena ladies (Rhonda, Donna, Stephanie, and Wendy), thank you so much for the gift card and encouraging words. There is a Pizza Hut right by the apartment. Eva, thank you for helping us find a place. And thanks to everyone who continues to pray us through this.
One last thing, we still are having internet issues. Turns out that the internet works in the lobby, but doesn't seem to make it to the 9th floor. So our posts might still be sporadic. We will try to figure out a time every day when we can log on.
Oh, and one more thing. We called NICU not long ago and Hope is doing great. Twice today they've turned down the ventilator (not entirely sure how that works) because she wasn't needing as much as they were giving her. You go girl!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
hey everyone. Here is the latest on Hope and Amy. Hope had to get a pic line today, which is an iv in her arm and the line runs all the way to just above her heart. That was a little scary , the nurse called just before 4 her care time and said we should not come up ( which makes your heart stop ) but they said this is a good thing they will be able to give her "stuff" more effectively. A little while later I was able to go see her and she looked fine . Today the kids came up , I went down this morning a brought them up it was so good to see them , we do miss them so much. It was great to take them into see Hope , they seem to cope so well . They do make me proud, here are some pics and video of them. Amy had a bit of a scare tonight while she was up with Hope her heart rate dropped as well as her other vitals. The nurse told her she was going to be fine, but its still hard for her to watch. We had a good talk tonight when I got back from taking the kids home and we just need to commit her to the Lord every day, for He is in control and we need to constantly remind are self's of that!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Here are some thoughts: Its 5:30 am it’s been a cold night, with this thin cover I have. Maybe that why I’m awake but I keep writing letters in my head, that feels so strange to me. I Feel the Lord is really changing me through this. Here are some of the ways I have seen GODs hand at work, foremost the life of Hope of Course but she is just the tip of the iceberg. I think some people give lip service to the miracle and say wow “that’s a miracle” but let me tell you it was and is an ongoing miracle. I feel I need to keep telling people this was a real one this does not happen, GOD came down that night and worked something out side of the norm. I know people will try to give us reasons why this happened , like when a baby is in stress there body’s speedup there maturity and that may have been the case but I don’t think so. GOD did this that’s why.
Another thing I’m amazed at is the power of prayer. I know people all over were praying but I keep hearing new stories. My favorite still is what was happing right outside the recovery room. The next day after Hope was put in the NICU we met our new nurse for the day Dot. Come to find out she had been upstairs that night and told us about how great it was to see people all over the halls praying, and how the nurses were talking about it, and she was able to say ”see prayer works”. It is so cool to be able to talk to her now about it.
We met with some friends last night and just rejoiced together over all that has been happening. We were talking about how this might be changing people around us, I really hope so. I hope this is going to be a church changing thing, I am now closer to some people than I ever thought that I would be. I have heard some stories about how some churches have had kids like this and how they have become the “church's kid” I hope this is going to be the case. But if it doesn’t that’s ok to I know now more than ever before that GOD is in control and He most definitely has a plan. The more I think on it Hope is the perfect name for this little girl. Later Mike
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Hi all just a quick note . Amy is doing great we have been moved down to the 2nd floor rm 2006, Amy refers to this as long term parking. Both her and Hope are sleeping now (much deserved )and are fine . Here is a picture we took of Hope's diaper it has been one of the things you see and reminds you just how small she really is. But it's so COOL! that is all I can say when I am in such awe of what has happened over the last 24 weeks..more later now some rest ..Mike PS yes that is a tube of chapstick
Please forgive me if this sounds a little mixed-up but here you go. The day started out Amy had her ultrasound and things looked as good as could be expected, so I went down to Moscow to take a call then when I was there she called and said I need to get back there she had started to bleed heavily and things had taken a turn for the worse. When I had gotten there she was going into shock from the blood loss. They got her stabilized and we started the wait and see , Hope still had a good heart beat the whole time. Things then got worse she was bleeding and starting to have contractions , at this point we had already have had to make a decision on whether we would or not resuscitate Hope .Based on the what she would have to go through and with the Lords leading we decided not to, and just be able to hold Her while she is here. So Amy went in and they brought me Hope a little while later, I held her with the understanding She would die in my arms. The doctors told us how it would happen and it could be slow. I was able to hold her for over 4 hours, Amy held her while in recovery also. We also had 7 other friends and family there and they were able to hold her. While that was going on I filled out my own daughters death certificate. Now let me tell you about my God. The OB doctor came in and talked to us and said that Hope should not look this good and she had felt she needed to talk to the NICU doctor and they would like to check her blood gases , we said OK they said not to get our hopes up that this was probably going to not be good news but they were at a loss to explain why she is still here. So while we waited are OB came in and was well very excited and said that her numbers looked perfect and that the NICU doctor would come and talk to us. When he came in he could not explain this, he asked us are we sure of her age did we get the dates wrong. The NICU doctor could not say anything but "It's a miracle ". He then laid out his plan for her saying it's still going to be a bumpy road but things could not look better. He has put her an antibiotics for a few days but she is not needing oxygen she is breathing on her own with just a little help, there is so much info to share about how good she is doing. The NICU nurse said it best" we have never seen anything like this", her numbers are good for a 28 week old not to say a 24 week. Well I just wanted to thank you all for your prayers they were heard and answered in a way I'm sure you or I could have never expected.
Mike :-) :-)