Big Eyes

I woke up feeling really anxious this morning and didn't want to start my day. I really wanted to avoid going to the NICU. But I had an appointment this morning with my therapist and she assured me I was fine. The therapist is located in the OB/GYN office and I had an appt with the nurse practicioner afterwards. She was checking my incision, but she also assured me I was fine. So I grudgingly headed off to see my girl. I am so glad I did! She was awake when I got there and the nurse told me I was welcome to hold her if I wanted. I decided to go ahead, even though it was lunchtime and mom and I were both starving. That little girl stayed awake the better part of an hour while I held her. She just kept looking up at me and it was so sweet. She just seemed like she was so happy to be visiting. Her numbers were perfect while I held her and they didn't bounce around at all. I even moved her around a bit because she was acting like she wanted to move her head the other way. She pulled out her cannula multiple times and even that didn't seem to upset things. It was the best visit. As I said, I wound up holding her for the better part of an hour. As I was holding her I actually started to feel like things were going to be okay. We're going to make it.

I just got off the phone with the NICU and Hope weighs exactly the same as last night. Pooh! I keep wanting her to gain. But overall she's doing really well. Thank you, Lord!